well its been a while since the last post. not much has changed, viewed a couple of flats totally out of our league cost wise and we have had the first scan (at last) and we have decided on the name boy- Adam girl- Emma
=D
am still doing my driving lessons, going really well only stalled a couple of times and by lesson 6 i was doing 3 point turns, which i think is pretty quick learning, but what do i know lol
jen has a wee bit of a cough at the moment and she is feeling pretty sh*t, plus she has also been really kind and given it to me =( which sux, plus she is getting me to make her chicken soup at frickin 3am =@ but she is going to the doctors tomoz to get her fixed
part from that all is still the same... house hunting job hunting and so on
Wednesday, 3 October 2007
Saturday, 8 September 2007
1st scan
well on thursday of this week jen goes for her first scan to determine the exact due date of our baby, its all quite a bit exciting. not much has happened recently, unfortunitly i still have no job and im totally skint its like nothing is going that well for me at the moment. i jus keep on waiting for that call saying that im invited for an interview or something but nothing ever happens :( really gets me down at times but then i think of why im doing this, makes it all seem worthwhile.. even though i still feel like shit lol
jen has been really ill recently, throwing up alot, not jus the usual feeling sick which i assure you is less than fun to clean up, more of that on the way i expect :(
nothing else really to report apart from that, ive been house hunting a bit but until i can get a job i cant really do much
until next time
cya :)
jen has been really ill recently, throwing up alot, not jus the usual feeling sick which i assure you is less than fun to clean up, more of that on the way i expect :(
nothing else really to report apart from that, ive been house hunting a bit but until i can get a job i cant really do much
until next time
cya :)
Friday, 17 August 2007
too much time but no time at all
well, me and jen spent the last few nights together, its truely amazing how good we get on, i guess im actually really lucky with her :) we handed in our form for the house but the letter for the proof of her pregnancy was inadequit so we have to fill in another form and get another letter delaying things AGAIN!!
its like we have like 9 months of time to get everything done which seems like a long time but also there is like no time left coz of everything that needs to be done.
i still dont have a job its driving me mad, i need the money and now 3 days late i still havent heard from the army to see if i get in or not :@ pure annoying
me and jen are now engaged, last night we were jus lying in bed talking and having a laf about everything and i brought out little candles and turned off all the lights and asked her to marry me. she jus kissed me so much and nodded her head, the happiest moment of my life XD
and today we got up pure late and jus chilled in bed before i went to the housing office and then to the doctors and she is in town with ash having a good time :)
the doctor prescribed me sleeping pills coz i cant sleep properly at the moment and im to see how i get on with them. i also have those calmz pills that aparently make everything feel better so ill try them and see how i get on
apart from that not much to report jus got to sit and wait for jens doctors to fill in the f*cking pregnancy thing :@
later dudes and dudettes XD
its like we have like 9 months of time to get everything done which seems like a long time but also there is like no time left coz of everything that needs to be done.
i still dont have a job its driving me mad, i need the money and now 3 days late i still havent heard from the army to see if i get in or not :@ pure annoying
me and jen are now engaged, last night we were jus lying in bed talking and having a laf about everything and i brought out little candles and turned off all the lights and asked her to marry me. she jus kissed me so much and nodded her head, the happiest moment of my life XD
and today we got up pure late and jus chilled in bed before i went to the housing office and then to the doctors and she is in town with ash having a good time :)
the doctor prescribed me sleeping pills coz i cant sleep properly at the moment and im to see how i get on with them. i also have those calmz pills that aparently make everything feel better so ill try them and see how i get on
apart from that not much to report jus got to sit and wait for jens doctors to fill in the f*cking pregnancy thing :@
later dudes and dudettes XD
Monday, 13 August 2007
Your what???
Hey I'm Stu an 18 year old unemployed dad to be. Me and my girlfriend Jen aren't married and havn't been together for long (although we love each other very much and have knowen each other for years)
I thought I would start a blog so that people like me know what someone else like themselfs is up to, although there is loads of sites for young mums to be there is not much help for young dads to be.
right now Jen is about 4/5 weeks pregnant taking into account the 2 weeks added on at the start of a pregnancy for some reason :S because we havent been having sex for 5 weeks and that would be pretty much impossable for her to be pregnant (and there is 0% chance that the child would belong to someone else :P ) *trust is thee most important thing in a relationship :P
Its really hard when you first find out... and its even harder when you realise your going to need to tell your parents... everything runs through your mind and its almost unbearable, personally I have had trouble eating sleeping i started smoking again after going through hell to quit and i have also started drinking a little heavier than usual. My parents were less than pleased when they found out they would be grandparents before they are 50 but I'm sure they will come round it will jus take time for them to adjust (thats what everyone is saying)
Jens parents are less than pleased aswell but everyone is saying they will be there for us so its not like we are alone, even if we want to do it all ourselfs and let the world know that they are wrong. its like no matter who finds out in about 30/40 people that know only 3 or 4 have said congratulations (one of them the doctor) and it really makes everything hard ye know coz she is happy and so am i but no one else is and it makes your mind run off in all sorts of directions and some of the thoughts that come into your head are ridiculous.
all the what ifs and such like what if there is a complication or what if she dies in labour or what if i can't get a job or cant get a house it really runs you into the ground. im basically trying to keep my mind on what im fighting for, and when i imagine seeing my baby *hope its a boy* in my head it makes all the hard work and stress seem worthwhile.
I am planning on going into the army ontop of everything thats going on at the moment aswell, i find out either tomorrow or the day after if im being sent to the army selection and that alone would be stress enough, another what if i die in iraq or what ever and leave jen and my child without a dad and without income. life is really hard at the momeny i am still having problems sleeping although eating is getting back to normal but the headaches are getting alot worse i'm going to see the doctor about it at somepoint although i kno he is just going to tell me im stressed.
all the advice you need to take in can also sometimes be too much, but at the same time your still left with some things unanswered. thank god for the internet i must have come up with about 10 questions that i needed answering in the last week as we only found out well just over a week ago.
i remeber when she first told me she was pregnant. we were sitting in the porch of the house (its comfy ok :P ) when we just got back to her house, and i knew something was wrong as she got rather drunk the night before and i thought she had cheated on me or something and i was like "well is there something you want to tell me?" and i saw the look in her face and she said "im pregnant" and i honestly started laughing because i didnt believe her, ive had 4 girls tell me that they are pregnant and they have all lied but i knew that jen wasnt like that, i suppose when something like that hits you you dont know what to think and she turned to me and said "no really im pregnant" as she handed me them and then it really hit me with the words "your what?!?!?!" she jus leaned over and started holding me really tight as i could tell she was trying not to cry, and i was just in shock she only found out about 2 hours previous.
later on i started worrying that the fact she had got really drunk at the start of the pregnancy it would have really affected the child as alchohol (or how ever you spell it) can really damage a child, worse than herion or cocain because the child can detox from it where as with booze it kills the cells in the brain and stops the spine developing or something, but when we went to the doctor she told us that drinking on one occasion doesnt make that much of a difference its only wen u get drunk all the time (like me) that it makes a difference so that was one weight or several millions off my mind only 3,232,691 left to go.
the next step was jus sitting lying in her room talking about everything even although none of it had sunk in for me. and we decided (i say we i mean i) that we went and told her mother as she would help her out and support her when im not around (as me and jen both still live with our parents) and i guarentee that was thee hardest moment of my entire life... going up to a woman you hardly know and telling her you are having sex with her only daughter and that she is pregnant.
she did take it well tho i was expecting her to run at me with a knife but she didnt really say all that much as i suppose she was in shock but it has sank in now and she is being really supportive :)
my mother on the other hand was a totally different story.. she couldnt even look at me in the eye and when i said night mum i love you she would ignore me but she has come round now and is talking to me but it hasnt sunk in for her just yet, my dad still hasnt said anything about it either and i dont have a clue what my sister thinks...
i do know what i need to do though which is a start for week one and i handed in the form for housing but i need to fix something on it tomorrow because i filled in the form wrong or something :@ which is another thing i need to do. also i need to make up my mind what i want... whether to go for the army and have to leave for 6 months at a time, meaning ill totally miss huge sections of my childs life and also run the risk of dieing and leaving jen and my child without a father and without income or my other choice is get a crappy wee job earning minimun wage trying to scrape by and not being able to buy jen and the baby everything she and he :P wants. its a really hard decision coz i love them jen and the baby soo much that i want them to not have to worry about bills and that but also i want to be with them through everything.
also i have a gig at the barfly a week today well monday its now tuesday at like 2am lol coz i cant sleep. its with black dahlia murder which is amazing coz they play all over the world, will be a huge gig, real great time to let the hair down and jus forget about all the stresses and strains of everything thats going on.
well i think that that is just about enough for the first post and i will keep adding stuff right the way through and beyond the birth so you all know what is going on and so i can take comfort that i help someone else in my position :P
nyt dudes and dudettes XD
Stu X
I thought I would start a blog so that people like me know what someone else like themselfs is up to, although there is loads of sites for young mums to be there is not much help for young dads to be.
right now Jen is about 4/5 weeks pregnant taking into account the 2 weeks added on at the start of a pregnancy for some reason :S because we havent been having sex for 5 weeks and that would be pretty much impossable for her to be pregnant (and there is 0% chance that the child would belong to someone else :P ) *trust is thee most important thing in a relationship :P
Its really hard when you first find out... and its even harder when you realise your going to need to tell your parents... everything runs through your mind and its almost unbearable, personally I have had trouble eating sleeping i started smoking again after going through hell to quit and i have also started drinking a little heavier than usual. My parents were less than pleased when they found out they would be grandparents before they are 50 but I'm sure they will come round it will jus take time for them to adjust (thats what everyone is saying)
Jens parents are less than pleased aswell but everyone is saying they will be there for us so its not like we are alone, even if we want to do it all ourselfs and let the world know that they are wrong. its like no matter who finds out in about 30/40 people that know only 3 or 4 have said congratulations (one of them the doctor) and it really makes everything hard ye know coz she is happy and so am i but no one else is and it makes your mind run off in all sorts of directions and some of the thoughts that come into your head are ridiculous.
all the what ifs and such like what if there is a complication or what if she dies in labour or what if i can't get a job or cant get a house it really runs you into the ground. im basically trying to keep my mind on what im fighting for, and when i imagine seeing my baby *hope its a boy* in my head it makes all the hard work and stress seem worthwhile.
I am planning on going into the army ontop of everything thats going on at the moment aswell, i find out either tomorrow or the day after if im being sent to the army selection and that alone would be stress enough, another what if i die in iraq or what ever and leave jen and my child without a dad and without income. life is really hard at the momeny i am still having problems sleeping although eating is getting back to normal but the headaches are getting alot worse i'm going to see the doctor about it at somepoint although i kno he is just going to tell me im stressed.
all the advice you need to take in can also sometimes be too much, but at the same time your still left with some things unanswered. thank god for the internet i must have come up with about 10 questions that i needed answering in the last week as we only found out well just over a week ago.
i remeber when she first told me she was pregnant. we were sitting in the porch of the house (its comfy ok :P ) when we just got back to her house, and i knew something was wrong as she got rather drunk the night before and i thought she had cheated on me or something and i was like "well is there something you want to tell me?" and i saw the look in her face and she said "im pregnant" and i honestly started laughing because i didnt believe her, ive had 4 girls tell me that they are pregnant and they have all lied but i knew that jen wasnt like that, i suppose when something like that hits you you dont know what to think and she turned to me and said "no really im pregnant" as she handed me them and then it really hit me with the words "your what?!?!?!" she jus leaned over and started holding me really tight as i could tell she was trying not to cry, and i was just in shock she only found out about 2 hours previous.
later on i started worrying that the fact she had got really drunk at the start of the pregnancy it would have really affected the child as alchohol (or how ever you spell it) can really damage a child, worse than herion or cocain because the child can detox from it where as with booze it kills the cells in the brain and stops the spine developing or something, but when we went to the doctor she told us that drinking on one occasion doesnt make that much of a difference its only wen u get drunk all the time (like me) that it makes a difference so that was one weight or several millions off my mind only 3,232,691 left to go.
the next step was jus sitting lying in her room talking about everything even although none of it had sunk in for me. and we decided (i say we i mean i) that we went and told her mother as she would help her out and support her when im not around (as me and jen both still live with our parents) and i guarentee that was thee hardest moment of my entire life... going up to a woman you hardly know and telling her you are having sex with her only daughter and that she is pregnant.
she did take it well tho i was expecting her to run at me with a knife but she didnt really say all that much as i suppose she was in shock but it has sank in now and she is being really supportive :)
my mother on the other hand was a totally different story.. she couldnt even look at me in the eye and when i said night mum i love you she would ignore me but she has come round now and is talking to me but it hasnt sunk in for her just yet, my dad still hasnt said anything about it either and i dont have a clue what my sister thinks...
i do know what i need to do though which is a start for week one and i handed in the form for housing but i need to fix something on it tomorrow because i filled in the form wrong or something :@ which is another thing i need to do. also i need to make up my mind what i want... whether to go for the army and have to leave for 6 months at a time, meaning ill totally miss huge sections of my childs life and also run the risk of dieing and leaving jen and my child without a father and without income or my other choice is get a crappy wee job earning minimun wage trying to scrape by and not being able to buy jen and the baby everything she and he :P wants. its a really hard decision coz i love them jen and the baby soo much that i want them to not have to worry about bills and that but also i want to be with them through everything.
also i have a gig at the barfly a week today well monday its now tuesday at like 2am lol coz i cant sleep. its with black dahlia murder which is amazing coz they play all over the world, will be a huge gig, real great time to let the hair down and jus forget about all the stresses and strains of everything thats going on.
well i think that that is just about enough for the first post and i will keep adding stuff right the way through and beyond the birth so you all know what is going on and so i can take comfort that i help someone else in my position :P
nyt dudes and dudettes XD
Stu X
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